When God is Quiet: The Message that Silenced the Noise in my Heart

On a day when pressing towards a mark that seemingly won't gain ground, a rhema word appears:

"When God is quiet, He has not quit. Trust Him. He does some of His best work when you don't think He's doing a thing". -Tony Evans

I originally was supposed to come sit down and write a prolific blog in sermon style that was addressing the role of a preacher versus the role of a pastor; and I will, but not today. No…this word (the quote above) that showed up on my husband's Facebook page, humbled me and quieted the pain I was feeling. It can be hard doing things for Christ. So hard…for if we were to quit and just consider ourselves- use our talents for clubs and party promotions, hip-hop music videos and more…we could be financially so much further, have provision to secure our kids futures, newer cars, homes… more. Please know we don't judge or criticize anyone who works in those professions and we immensely admire their talent and creativity. Yet, for us there's this call on our lives.

We've tried to run from it, dodge it, dismiss it, listen to naysayers and doubters…and years later here we are, trying desperately to bring this conference into reality. For Ryan, this vision has been in his heart for 17 years. That's a long time to deny who God is calling you to be. As a wife knowing why God placed you with your husband to complete a vision…to have need and purpose established in a Godly plan that utilizes your gifts and talents…well, that was a feeling of completion. That is, until God seemingly got quiet again. I found myself upset today and almost angry at the process. "Why be quiet now!?" I wanted to scream out loud; and in my heart, I probably did. With tears burning in my eyes that I refused to let fall, I came home from a frustrating day of work (not purpose, but a necessity of life at this moment) and was set to be bitter, to be harsh, to jump on a soapbox or sit and cry out in bitterness to God. And…I… couldn't. 

I knew better than to 'go there'. I know He knows what we're facing and I understand the spiritual reasons why we would be facing this wall…but knowing that doesn't change the pain. However, knowing He is there and that he hears you and wants you to know He's there…well that can change your aspect of how to handle the pain. I just taught that in the physical sense in AP Psychology yesterday- placebos in a trauma moment can have the ability to allow people to naturally release endorphins that can block pain. Spiritually and emotionally this is related, because the right word or God-wink moment can help you handle that emotional pain for one more hour, one more day or one more season. 

So while I may be weary, I am not defeated and I can find peace in knowing that He is working it out. And yes! He does see what is needed and how hard it is. And He does see that it hurts. And No! God doesn't want that for any of us. He is handling it, and even if I don't see it, or know how, I know He loves me and He is doing His best work. And as the tears of gratefulness for my beautiful Savior finally release as opposed to ones of pain…I can give thanks for a quiet unexpected message that spoke volumes to my spirit today.

 Be Blessed, keep trusting and Happy Rosh Hashanah!
-Tracey V. Council-Ph.D. ; Executive Director of Breathe 150 Entertainment

www.breathe150entertainment.com